Jesus is so cool

I've been having dreams and odd happenings. Its weird that I've been hearing God so often in my heart as spiritually dry I've been. I feel like I'm wandering through the wilderness looking for something, but I don't know what.

The first dream, was a dream about me walking alone in a dark place and I just wanted to get to where I was going, but every time I took a step a giant, ferocious, twilight-looking wolf crossed my path and was snarling at me about to pounce. But I declared in the name of Jesus that it had no authority over me and that it could not touch me and threaten as it did, it did not touch me. This repeated several times, but I reacted the same way and the wolves didn't touch me. I woke up in a half sleep with God telling me that each wolf represented a trial or fear that I was going to overcome.

The Second dream was a dream about me going to a restaurant to see Christian's friend but when I got there, a raccoon started attacking me. All of a sudden Yukari came and started calming the raccoon down and taming it, but when she left it started attacking me again, and I hated it. I felt like this meant that my faith was so weak right now that I couldn't handle anything. Anything that happened was going to shake me up and I wouldn't know how to deal with it, I would just feel attacked and freak out.

I started praying the other day and I feel my heart being lead to a path toward helping children. i don't know what I'm going to do with it, but I feel that that's where I'm headed. I have a firm belief that my job was given to me by God, not because I was deserving of it, but by his grace. It suits me in every way and I felt like God was saying that he has blessed me with these talents for his glory. I remember in 10"40 the movie, they talk about God shifting the wealth from the wicked to the righteous. After sponsoring a child through World Vision, as I was praying I felt while I was praying that I have a unique opportunity to transfer the wealth of the children I work with who's parents have plenty, to the children who have nothing and sometimes no parents at all.