Halloween is so dumb now. I'm too old to go trick or treating, too lame to go to a crazy party and too young to actually do anything cool :p whatevs tho. I still got to be ellie that was cool (: but i'm wondering if anyone can really be like this. Up is so cute but its rediculous. It's gotta be the 1 out of a billion chance that you'd meet when you're kids and stay together through school and get married and grow old together through thick and thin. So if there are about 8 billion or so people on this earth, there are 8 couples(roughly) that could experience this. (haha i totally BSed those statistics ;] but i don't know i feel like marriage and real deep meaningful love is out of my reach and off in the distance as i feel with all other things. like becoming a leader, going to college, driving, and getting a job. I'm stuck. I need to experience life! All I do is sit around at home watching other people live it. But still i'm so scared. I feel like its all pipe dreams that they're all unattainable. Just need to break out of my shell. its 2 am and i have school in 6 hours. My body is begging me to go to sleep. but i really wanna allnighter. I feel like i could get so much done (:Monday, November 1, 2010
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Halloween is so dumb now. I'm too old to go trick or treating, too lame to go to a crazy party and too young to actually do anything cool :p whatevs tho. I still got to be ellie that was cool (: but i'm wondering if anyone can really be like this. Up is so cute but its rediculous. It's gotta be the 1 out of a billion chance that you'd meet when you're kids and stay together through school and get married and grow old together through thick and thin. So if there are about 8 billion or so people on this earth, there are 8 couples(roughly) that could experience this. (haha i totally BSed those statistics ;] but i don't know i feel like marriage and real deep meaningful love is out of my reach and off in the distance as i feel with all other things. like becoming a leader, going to college, driving, and getting a job. I'm stuck. I need to experience life! All I do is sit around at home watching other people live it. But still i'm so scared. I feel like its all pipe dreams that they're all unattainable. Just need to break out of my shell. its 2 am and i have school in 6 hours. My body is begging me to go to sleep. but i really wanna allnighter. I feel like i could get so much done (:
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pfft! never too old for free candy! :)
ReplyDeletethats funny that you'd mention UP, i just went to SD and got my DVD from my sister's apartment. i agree that a lot of the best/meaningful things in life are scary & its hard not to hesitate when they come up. but thats part of what makes it so meaningful-its hard to get there :)
don't feel discouraged, everyone has their own pace but don't hold yourself back from great things, okay?
i hope you got enough sleep to last you through the day!! if i could give you my napping powers, you know i would <3