Sunday, December 27, 2009

up UP and AWAY! :]


up, up and away
through the clouds and through the days
flying past my fear of heights
leaving all my chains behind
reclaiming memories lost in time
i'm gonna make it all mine.

i'm leaving now this vessel
in which i roam about the earth
abandoning some things
i've held onto since my birth.
i guess you could say i never learn
i just run around in circles
awaiting the next turn.

i'm at a cross road,
that cliche place we all reach in our lives.
i don't even know what to do, where to start
or which path i think is right.
i'm just sitting here for hours
going down one way but not too far.
afraid that i'll get lost or found
or trip and break my heart.

there's just a lot of things
running all around my mind
but i can't run away this time
cause its more than just a board game
its LIFE and its coming at me like a drunk driver.
i can't even hide cause every time i close my eyes
i'm trapped again.
a caged bird singing tunes to pass the time.
but the words i sing don't even rhyme.

And this dang cold is breaking me down to luke warm
my heart is like hot chocolate poured out on the floor
i'm absorbing myself into fibers unknown
just trying to find my way back home.
but where that is, i'll never know
cause i sealed my heart in the cracks of cement
just in the crevices next to the grass that grows.
the mysteries there that are sown
that it can push through its tough environment
and become something of its own.

Now i'm just rambling
but this is just how i feel.
struggling with what's really going on and what's real.
reliving the days for the first time in my dreams
tearing the truth from its seams
angry and hurt at the way things seem
but making it somehow from what i believe.

DOWN
down
down
i've come back from the cloud
and back to reality dragged down by gravity
my balloon drooping and sagging
from lack of helium. or happiness.
but its just a stupid balloon its not me
and its my choice alone who i'll choose to be
i just want to be free and float up into space
but every balloon has to deflate. :[

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

teeth analogy :]

i was really bored every week as i go to the dentist to take care of mi 9. yup NINE cavities.
so i was sitting in the chair all drugged out and i started piecing together this analogy
to pass the time :]

we are like teeth.
all different shapes and sizes and created for different purposes.
first our teeth start sprouting out as babies, we're all uncaring and stuff
innocent and pure and clean.
as we mature, our teeth fall out and we get new ones, like when we're born again in Christ.
a second chance :] "the old has gone, and the new has come!"
but then, we start eating things that we don't need but what seems good
like candy and cake and icecream, and in our disobedience, we don't brush our teeth(repent).
everything seems peachy keen on the outside, everything seems perfectly fine
while our insides start rotting away. and even pain starts to throb.
Finally, we humble ourselves and go to the dentist.
he opens up the teeth and cleans it all up and fills it (like getting filled with the Holy Spirit)
and we're all good to go again :]
haha i don't know how braces, vaneers, wisdom teeth, retainers and the like would fit into this x]
laters

Monday, July 13, 2009

first blog

i'm lame.
don't read mi blog.
it'll make u really bored.
not lieing.
:]