Lately

I haven't really been doing much of anything. While everyone else is busier than ever, I've just been at home wasting my life away like Repunzel wondering when my life will begin. I haven't blogged in a long time, mostly because I know that little to no one will ever read this but my old teacher got me back in simply because I need an outlet just to vent. This summer I spent my time doing the things that i'd normally do, but i feel so empty. i definitely need more Jesus. and i've been wanting to speak words of encouragement to my fellow classmates for a while now, but i need to get myself straight first. and I realize that i'm starting to lose self- control in my life. With the decisions that i make and the responsibilities that i hold (as if i ever had any) xD but for some reason its hard for me to find my way back. and one intense (real life) dog fight got me to understand that i am still afraid of what will become of my physical body. I am still afraid of pain. Which normal people usually are. However noble people will usually overlook that pain for something that matters much more, and i'm not there yet. i wish i was.